Struggling.

I’ve hit an all time low again. My weight loss progress isn’t working out all too well, I’m now 84kgs, and I guess I’m not okay.

Problem: Every time I think about my weight, I grab the nearest snack and eat it all. Worse still, it’s usually a bag of crisps or biscuits.
Solution: Don’t buy them. Don’t eat them.

It sounds so easy, but it is not for me. I keep giving myself excuses, like “Oh, but it’s exam time and so you need more food to concentrate”. And then I buy all that bad stuff and the cycle goes on and on again.

Problem: I drink too much Coca-Cola
Solution: Home blended fruit juice
Problem with solution: Massive sugar intake ( ~500g in less than a month )

No idea what to do with that.

I had a dilemma a few weeks ago of whether to go back or not during summer because going back would be pointless since I’d just lie down in bed for more than 16 hours a day… which is completely opposite of what I should do! I’ve discussed it with my sister and I’ve decided to go back and:

  • Get a work internship for at least 2 weeks
  • Get a teaching internship for another 2.
  • Get a part time job at a tuition school (if my parents allow me)
  • Sign up for the gym, get a personal trainer and work out at least 3 times a week or join those fitness classes
  • Go for a jog at least once a week at Tasek
  • Keep to this plan

I’m feeling so uncertain at the moment, it’s crazy. Well, on the bright side, my visa is ready and I can’t wait to go to Morocco next week!

The Challenge

I am challenging myself to again, change my lifestyle. My WLP is still working, I’m now 78 kgs. I have to climb up and down 4 flights of stairs daily so I didn’t subscribe to the Gym membership. I just need to remember that I actually schedule exercise plans during the day and well, keep to it.

Though I clearly posted a student budget post, I realized that I did not keep up to it. Drinks like Sex on the Beach, Screaming Orgasm, Apple Sours, etc were so delicious at the bar. Yes, I went to a bar. It was just a random meetup, but this went on for weeks. I now drink at least once a week and have at least 3 units and I need to stop. I fear I’m going to become an alcoholic. And broke.

I checked how I was faring in October, and truth be told, I have still a leftover of £80 by the end of the month after spending on accommodation, a flight ticket, and various other bits and bobs that I felt I needed to settle down. Food expenses was a ridiculous amount – £200 for the whole month. That’s like £50 a week on  groceries. Out of which:

  • £30 was spent on ice-cream and coca-cola
  • £30 was spent on chicken
  • £25 was spent on fruits and veg
  • £20 was spent on bacon and prawns and spam. Yes I tried it and I liked it but it’s full of blah so I’m going to stop.
  • £20 was spent on oven food: pizzas, turkey escalopes, curly fries
  • £10 was spent on snacks
  • £15 was spent on eggs (bloody hell why are eggs so darn expensive here?!)
  • £15 was spent on alcohol
  • £5 was spent on rice, until I found out that Sainsbury’s Basics sold them for only 40p so I can cut this down by 10 fold.
  • The remaining £20 went to other things like sauces, oats and cooking oil.

It’s ridiculous. I have to cut down a lot and so now I’ve decided:

  1. No more bacon and eggs for breakfast. I can’t afford it. I’ll have oats instead
  2. No more alcohol, ice-cream and coca-cola. If I could live without it in summer, I sure can do it again.
  3. I shall cook less chicken for every meal. Instead of 200g and feeling overstuffed, I can eat it for two meals.
  4. No more oven food. It’s nice to have once in a while, but too much is ridiculous.

I’m still not the best out there at saving money and losing weight, but at least I try.

WLP: July 2011

WLP, otherwise known as Weight Loss Progress, is my attempt at trying to lose around 20kgs to get back into the shape I was originally, two years ago. This will be an end-of-month post where I sum up whatever I’ve done.

For the whole month of July I have been exercising occasionally. The most notable ones are:

  • Skipping Rope
  • Badminton
  • Swimming
  • Water Slide Bouncer (the effort needed to climb the slide and lift the kids count).
  • Walking around the capital (yes, walking counts too)

It isn’t much, I admit. But my diet has changed for the better, bye bye over-healthy school cafeteria food. I used to stuff myself until I was bloated. Now I eat until I feel full. I could not control myself whenever I ate school food because whenever they serve a bad meal and run out of it, a better alternative is present and no matter what I always, always go for seconds. I ate way more calories than I needed. Not to mention my exam stress when I consistently snacked throughout the whole meal even after my huge meals.

I’ve been using SparkPeople to track my progress, but I haven’t done it in a daily basis because I don’t measure my food. But on days that I’ve done it, I’ve taken about 1500 kcal a day so that’s OK.

During the month of July, I had consulted an upcoming dietician on how to lose weight. Based on my current (as in two weeks ago) statistics, I had to eat 2200 kcal to maintain my 80+ kg weight. By cutting my intake, I also lose weight. But to avoid flabby skin and the side effects of rapid weight loss, exercise is crucial. I haven’t done that much but I’m working on it.

Whenever I feel all blah about my weight loss situation, I continue to read more articles on weight loss and try to re-motivate myself. I’ve eaten out on several occasions but so far I feel that I’m in control. Until today.

I realize that I am an emotional eater. A horrid remark from a relative made me lose all self esteem and I went from “No I don’t want to eat anything ever again” to “Fine, since I’m fat I’ll just eat everything I have at home.” I’m glad I was stopped before it started. And here’s my July Report!

Weight on June 30th: 85.2kgs
Weight on July 31st: 82.5kgs.
Weight lost this month: 2.7 kgs
Weight to lose: 17.3kgs